Tired

Well I guess it makes sense that I am tired at 3:30 in the morning but I can't sleep. I am through something or maybe it is just my hormones but I can't explain it. I can't even explain it to myself. I was happy, to protective, to reasonable, to mad to sad to calm. Like in the course of two hours.
It started when I went out for my night jog like normal and I left thirty minutes later then usual and it was like pitch black out so Patti said she would come with me. I would of argued but she wouldn't be able to see me in like 2 seconds. Lol. On the way back there was this silence that was telling us both to say something and a couple of subjects came up. Including the puppy subject. It turned in to a really big fight. There were all these different emotions but in the end I ended up crying in to my pillow upstairs so my grandparents nor my Dad would be able to hear me crying. Don't worry I wasn't just crying over the puppies there is just so much going on in my head right now and I am not handling it very well anymore. I went home tear streaked with my Dad. He gave me a hug, offered me yummy spagetti which I declines since I wasn't in the mood to eat and I went and had a shower. Guess what I did in the shower? I sat down with water pouring over me with my legs pulled to my chest, my arms wrapped around my legs and my head resting on my arms. I started to cry again but probally a lot worst. I didn't know that my parents could hear until my Dad opened the door to the bathroom and kept on asking me whats wrong. I just kept saying "Go Away!" and "I don't wanna talk about it right now."
I slept in till 10 in the morning and Katie came over at noon. I felt really bad when Allison called at noonish and asked me to hang out with her, Melissa and Jessy. But she said she would call me back when Jessy got there. So Katie came over we talked in Patti's room and tried to figure out our school supply lists but was interupted when Allison called again but told me to meet them at Melissa's house #47. I felt bad just leaving Katie hanging like that but NO ONE from West Lynde has been calling to hang out so obviously I jumped at the opportunity. Anyways, we hung out in Melissa's room which by the way has a lot of Justin Bieber posters. :D When Jessy got there Allison had to leave so the rest of us went to the Library. Omg. Jessy had the weirdest ideas for example he suggessted that Melissa, him and I held hands when walking in and the funny thing is we endsed up doing it. Jessy was like "Wow" and Melissa and I were like "It was your idea." After chilling on a couch for like twenty minutes we went to the Library Cafe and I gave Jessy money for a Slushee. Melissa and I didn't want anything. I swear to god whenever Melissa was distracted, looking away or had her head down Jessy or I did or said something funny and we would burst out laughing. We didn't even mean to do it and Melissa's like "what??" and shes like "Wow Im missing everything". I laughed so hard I had tears in my eyes.
You know what is soooo stupid. My Mom came to Patti's ,before I left to hang out and she asked me to babysit from 4-5pm while she worked which meant I had to cancel papers. When I got back from the library at 3:22pm (Lol. I only know the exact time because I had my Ipod Touch in my hand)the papers were done and I didnt need to babysit Kethan after all since Dad got off work early. Apparently Katie looked upset while doing papers. Patti thinks its because I didnt invite her to hang out with people she doesnt know. Seriously!
Anyways I am at Grams now. Michael and Little Paul are in Toronto and Grams and Grampy are at Auntie Lisa's. I ended up here because Alysha wanted company and she asked if me or Kethan wanted to go to Grams with her. I said No because I was watching Something Borrowed. AWESOME movie.

So she attempted in bringing Kethan twice. She got about 20 steps away from the house when he started freaking out for Mommy. So I offered to come with, attempt 1 failed and he kept on wanting to go for a walk. The last time we tried the only reason he even made it was because we kept on saying for the entire walk We are going to watch Cars. Lol. He wouldnt go to sleep. He didnt want to go upstairs but he had to because if he stayed downstairs he would fall off the couch. So I had to be the bad guy and bring him upstairs to Grams room while he was kicking and screaming. He cried for like ten minutes but then finally shut up when he was hypnotized by cartoons. He was laying beside Akysha and I was about to leave when Kethan started crying and trying to come to me. FAILED! EPIC FAIL! I ended up cuddling up to Kethan with Alysha doing the same on the other side. When he was half asleep I left. No crying. No nothing. I was free! So I had dinner! Lol nutella sandwich and Peach tea.
So I came to blog. Ohhh I forgot to mention I went to Chapters and got three new books.


I am obsessed with wolves. If you didn't already know. Anyways, you probally won't like these books but I love them. But sadly I don't like the cover of this one. The second book had the best cover EVER! Or at least of a wolf :D

Ohh and the fourth one is coming out December 1st. The only reason I am even putting this one in is so I remember :P


Goodnight!
:Dryleejane:D