Michaels Sammi&Rainy Day

I had a "Michael's" sammi. It is just cream cheese and jam but when I was a kid this was practically all I ate. I used to call it a Michael's Sandwich. It is really good and my Mom was super suprised when I asked her to make me one, I asked her because I didn't know what ingredients were used. lol.
It is raining or.. was raining. So we didnt go to the movies. Maybe tomorrow is what Grams said. This seriously sucks, twice in a row this has happened. At least one person will tell me it is just not meant to be and to me thats Bush. Lmao. Emma who came up with that in the first place? Was it Thurshan? I completely forget.
Everyone had salmon for dinner so I simply just didnt eat. If you don't already know, I hate fish. I know.. everyone says "Are you nuts?" . I have never liked fish. When I was little and my family and I (minus my Dad) lived in the basement of Grams, we were not aloud to leave the table until our plates had nothing on them. And if we didnt they would make us sit at the table until we did. Im not kidding I am being serious, I think there were a few times where I fell to sleep at the table or sat there for hours.
I picked out a whole bunch of movies at Grams house put them in a bag and Mom, Kethan, Bella, Toast and I went home. Sadly before we got in the house Grampy came and said that there was another showing for the house at eight, making him imply that we couldnt come home till after 9 at night. It really sucked. Mom drove me to Mumus to get dog food but things didnt go as planned. Mom and I had a fight in the car about money and the townhouse. I said that it was possible for her to get a job and she flipped. I didnt say it in a mean way. I was just being reasonable.
When we arrived at Bumu's I said to Mom maybe we should do the movie night tomorrow or something because I am really tired, I am not going to be able to stay awake and I feel like being at Bumu's tonight. Not that I said the last one. Then she made me feel guilty, she told me that she will go home& watch movies alone like every other night and then she was starting to cry. Dad came out and I told her it is fine and that I am coming home. She kept on telling me "no, it is fine." but I just refused and said I was coming anyway. I went inside to get dog food, Dad talked to Mom because he came out and she drove off. I couldn't believe it.
It is all Dad's fault. It is. I love my Dad but right now he isnt just changing his life he is changing others, more like messing up mine. Seriosuly we have to pick sides or go back and forth. Sadly I have tears in my eyes right now because everything is just messed up, I wanted this to happen but now that it has I want everything to be the same as it is, or in this case was. I want.. this victorian house to stay ours. I want us to be afamily, maybe not perfect but still a family. I could go on and on but when I think about thinks it makes me realize that it isnt even that I want things to stay as they are but I need them to.
Anyways, I just had brocilli soup for dinner and a mini icecream cookie sandwich for dessert. I am going to watch Suits which has one or two really hot guys in it. Hopefully it will cheer me up a but.

:Dryleejane:D